"Neurodivergent Kiss: Autistic Fairytale... Or Fabulous Marriage?"

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Welcome to Exile, a podcast about Jewish lives under the shadow of fascism. Narrated by award-winning screen and stage actor, Mandy Patinkin. Untold stories and firsthand accounts drawn from intimate letters, diaries and interviews found in the Leo Baeck Institute’s vast archive. Each episode, a story of beauty and danger that brings history to life. Because the past is always present. Starting November 1, episodes are released weekly every Tuesday. The Leo Baeck Institute, New York | Berlin is a research library and archive focused on the history of German-speaking Jews. Antica Productions produces award-winning non-fiction podcasts, films and series which inform and inspire audiences around the world.

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Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage.

Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?”

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"Neurodivergent Kiss: Autistic Fairytale... Or Fabulous Marriage?"

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Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage.

Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?”

Gotta story for ya…

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Living Autistic in Dangerous Times: Trump Labels 1 in 4 Families “Dire Threat” 16:03

منذ 10 أيام16:03

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Cold Open (into silence) You love Dune? Like me? Frank Herbert is dead... wrong. Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is. [Music ] Intro You're listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 5. Attacks on neurodivergence, facing our fears, finding our strength. Today we're talking threats, resistance, and the power of a hundred million voices. Just one autistic elder's truth. I'm Johnny Profane. Content Note: political violence, eugenics, genocide, institutionalized discrimination, systemic oppression + experiences & opinions of one autistic voice... in my 70s. [Music] You love Dune? Like me? Frank Herbert is dead... wrong. Fear is NOT the mind-killer. Denial is. I must honor my fear. Fear is my guardian. My junkyard dog. My screaming siren. Fear is the warning of annihilation. It must be heeded. I will embrace my fear. Then share its wisdom. I will let it flow through me. Become purpose & strength. And when we have acted? I will remember… its lessons. Where the Beast of Fear once stood, we will now stand. We will abide. Stronger for having feared… then acted… Together. Trust me. I know a lot about fear. I’m autistic. ADHD, too. In my 70s. Living in dangerous times in America. And we got a lot more to fear… than fear itself. [Music] Hey... you know how this works. If this resonates, now might be a good time to like, share… maybe text a link to a friend. Really helps get the word out. Trump administration identifies Autism & ADHD as "dire threats to the American people." Some folks called this headline hyperbole. Click-bait exaggeration. To my face. With hostility. Calling out what they see as “fear-mongering.” One fellow autist on LinkedIn really tore me a new one along those lines. Tried to anyways. I got a bit strong on her ass… So she blocked me. Exercising her denial. But this is how it starts. The White House labeled us a "dire threat." Not as evil actors, but based on our condition… our existence itself. Autism as a "dire threat." Not a difference. Then throwing out a gratuitous observation... “77% of young adults do not qualify for the military based in larger part on their health scores.” ( Full Whitehouse.gov post. ) As if that is how America now measures the value of our lives. As cannon fodder. As if there aren’t now… and haven’t been throughout history… Neurodivergent warriors. Demonizing all the disabled. All the Different. As if we are the ones destroying America. I'm struggling. I'm terrified... Even knowing that cruel terror is their purpose. Didn't help watching Man in the High Castle lately. The scene where ashes are falling because they're cremating the old and defective... I'm toast. About 1:43 in the YouTube linked in text . {video clip in text} This terror? Not just my personal problem. We neurodivergents ain’t a small marginalized group. The numbers tell a bigger story: * About 30 million Americans have direct family ties to an autistic person * Roughly another 30 million have cousins or close relatives who are autistic * 60 million. That's 1 in 6 Americans with close autistic connections But we're just getting started. Add in ADHD, even accounting for overlap between conditions, the numbers become staggering: * 69 million Americans have immediate family members affected * 75 million have extended family affected * Nearly 1 in 4 American families impacted Without considering the millions of families affected by other disabilities. All these figures are back of the envelope. Conservative estimates from current prevalence rates. No formal research exists yet on these numbers. But the truth is clear… We're talking 1 in 4 American families? Let that sink in. When do we stop seeing these numbers as statistics? And start seeing the faces of neighbors. Your friends. Your loved ones? When are we ready to stand together? Even if they don't round us all up right away… They’re already killing education programs. For Autism, ADHD, intellectual disability, speech, hearing, vision, physical disabilities… Personally I’m secretly pleased to see torturous ABA-based programs unfunded. Applied Behavioral Analysis forces change on helpless autistic children. Screw that noise. But caring parents across the nation? They want support for their kids. They’re showing up at Town Halls. Getting loud about these recent cuts. Expressing fear and anger. Hurting kids cuts deep. And wide. Worse yet? Over 80% of us autistics are unemployed or underemployed. Think about it. That means killing our Medicaid, Medicare, Social Security, Food Stamps, Housing, etc. That’s institutionalized Economic violence. A soft means of killing us off. And Soft Genocide is the deadliest kind. It goes unnoticed. Unmourned. But, hey, it's not only lost benefits I'm worried about. Underlying many of Trump's policies? Turn over a rock on most? You’ll find the sinister grin of “Eugenics” staring up at you. That debunked, unscientific program to improve human “breeding stock.” By terminating the reproduction of “Undesirables.” By any means necessary. Isolation, deportation, starvation, illness, violence, death. Just like Nazi Germany, against all disabilities. Libertarian Survival of the Fittest. At its finest. Ayn Rand would be so proud. “Meritocracy” my ass… Denial begins with dismissal. Violence begins with hate speech. Notice the subtle, insidious damage done here. Labeling neurodivergence and other differences as "dire threats." That may be the most dangerous aspect of this White House publication. Like they weaponized Disability, Equity & Inclusion (DEI) through propaganda. It’s how it starts. The slow slide to genocide. We've seen this before. The marginalization of minorities. "Do you want a BLIND person at the FAA?“Would you trust a PARALYZED person holding your life in their hands?""Do you see a WOMAN on the front lines… defending you? A transgender?” "How about an IMMIGRANT raping your daughter?” Mockery becomes hate speech.Becomes mass hatred.Becomes normalized violence.It's right there in the authoritarian… even Fascist… playbook. Now? It’s The American Way. First, we're other. Then, we're less than human.A burden. A danger. Finally…A target For violence. And hate crimes against Americans with disabilities have risen 29.5% over the last five years. As American political discourse has darkened. See what I mean? Can we turn our horror into action? The very point of these propaganda tactics is terror. Threatening humans’ income, medical care, housing… lives? That’s terrorism. How can we possibly fight our fear becoming terror? This may encourage you. The sheer number of American families. Who are seeing their loved ones threatened. A 100 million... or more... affected American disabled families? I believe we can raise a decent reaction. If we act together. I’ve proven over and over again in my life I’m no leader. Executive functioning? Hell, I struggle to find topic sentences. Decisions over local action, political organization, resistance demonstrations? Beyond me. So I’m not about to create some Neurodivergent Justice League or anything. But one thing that someone like me can do? That is positive? Put a human face on suffering. Without spinning toxic positivity. You may disagree. I understand. Nevertheless? I have value. And this warning has merit. It can gather a crowd. Maybe more capable folks who can run with it. YET… There are 4 things we can do right now to effect change: * Share this warning. With friends. With government representatives. Make it visible. Make it heard. * Join the conversation below in comments. Your story matters. Your voice counts. * Connect with organizations already fighting this fight. They need our numbers. And maybe most important… * Create a mutual support network. Might be neighbors who check in with each other. Or more… shared travel, shopping together, mutual defense. A small community of choice. Fear is not the enemy… Fear is the Dance of Shiva, baby. When that Hindu god becomes the “Destroyer of Worlds" in the famous Oppenheimer quote. His flashing feet destroying the illusion of denial. Invoking a new creation. Feel your fear. Ride it.DO something With its strength. Together, maybe… just may be... We can destroy ignorance. Make something… new. We must honor our fear. Then act. Together. Outro In coming weeks, we'll challenge the medical model of autism, with an episode called, "CBT...? Never Worked for Autistic Me." Why? Part of a series on how neurodivergent individuals can build sustainable, authentic lives - with or without professional intervention. AutisticAF Out Loud podcast is supported solely by listeners like you. Know a friend or family member with a sincere interest in neurodiversity? Please consider emailing this episode to them. We believe no one should have to pay to be autistic. Many neurodivergent people can't afford subscription content. Your Ko-Fi tip of any amount helps keep this resource free for them. Or join our paid subscriber community at johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com for ongoing support. Link in description. #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts enjoy a free subscription. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... 3 Rando Manifestos 15:21

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Cold Open I was not born to be pitied. I was born to raise Hell. Autistic style. Intro You’re listening to AutisticAF Out Loud. One voice. Raw. Real. Fiercely Neurodivergent. Since 1953. Season 5, Episode 4. Breaking mirrors, dancing at the edge of noise, raising autistic hell. Autism, Neurodiversity, 3 Poems... and 3 Rando Manifestos. Just one autistic elder's truth. I'm Johnny Profane. Content Note: trauma, sexual assault, self-harm, rage, transformative therapy moments + experiences & opinions of one autistic voice… 71. [Music] 1953. Manifesto #1 I was Born Autistic. Not to be Fixed… I'm autistic. Born 1953. I was not a product of a vaccine. I was not a product of a disease. Mental or physical. I was not a mistake. Genetic or epigenetic. I was not born to be fixed by CBT, pill or chip. I was not born to be pitied. I was born to raise Hell. Autistic style. [Music] The static never stops. Poem #1 Dancing Close to the Edge of the Noise #AskingAuDHDists… bear with me a minute.I'm autistic+ADHD.71. i feel likea brilliant creative soulas if… trapped in a damaged body& neurologytrying to communicatewith the worldthrough an intermittentlyshort-circuiting transistor radioplaying through static& the distortion& sparking circuits… to just be heard. do you understand at all what I mean? #ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #ReallyAuDHD [Music] Sometimes? The mask slips… Poem #2 AFTER THE SECRET I have strengths.Not one is my superpower.I have challenges.Not one is my kryptonite. I'm that kid in third gradeDrop drop DroppingA mysterious blue crystalInto that test tube—Squealing in delight Every time it explodes…In purple streams. I love cosplay.But I don’t have to flyWear a maskOr sport a capeTo be autistic. Still… I get to be the heroor bald evil geniusof my own life. [Music] Neurodivergent life… twists different. Manifesto #2 My Autistic Life: Mebbe a Little Zelig. Mebbe a Bit Forest Gump. But All Me. Sharing our Neurodivergent stories is powerful. I was born before autism was invented… More or less. 1953. Been a meditation teacher,cult member,magazine publisher,ad agency owner,non-profit activist,3-time grad student3-time husband,homeless,mental health counselor,substance abuse counselor,cult counselor,homeless,fast-food clerk,Pretend Rock Star,homeless… I’ve bantered with Bill Gates.Felt stupid in front of Bill Joy.Touched the Maharishi.Stumbled on Keith HaringJumping turnstiles in the subway… But… I met anonymous geniusesin cubicles,bull penstrailer parks,on the street… This is not my idle boast. This is my earnest promise. Ask the neurodivergent in front of you… Have they got stories to tell you. Genius touches every life. Of every 'type. If you can perceive it. So. I have no credentials to offer. At least none that matters to me... anymore. So I offer my life. My autistic life. Hoping better for our kids. Because if nothing changes… Content Note: Discussion of trauma statistics and sexual assault Over 80% of them will experience trauma in their life. Interpersonal violence, bullying, sensory trauma, emotional abuse, and systemic discrimination. Nearly three times higher than average. And many autistic individuals experience multiple types of trauma concurrently. Just as I did in the 1950s. Bullying by classmates & teachers. Physical attacks on the playgrounds. Sexual attack in the park. And in the home, Trauma not from neurodivergence. Trauma from how modern society treats the neurodivergent. [Music] That clean, polite, clinical phrase… “trauma?” It has a personal face, a personal moment in every neurodivergent life. This is mine. Session #137. When memory breaks. Poem #3 The Body Abides "Like I told youNothing really happenedCan't sleep is all…."He repeats his view, "The body watches.The body ALWAYSFucking watches." "Yeah, he kissed meFathers do that.Yeah, it was weird but…."He whispers me, "Your body, your witness.And this witness ALWAYSFucking watches." Then he leans in…"What if he'd kissedyour sister's lips…?" "I'd fucking kill him." That's when… i see mein his mirror watching myselfwatch my self transparently autistic a son no more,yet the body…abides. ragedark rageScreaming RAGE i'd fucking kill him fucking kill him kill him Him. i rise…soslowly and fucking smash that mirror i rock, i sway…i rub one red eye.i stand, I stare…I sigh, I say, "My body watchesThe body ALWAYSFucking watches…," As I close his office door… I abide. [Music] Decades later. Still raising hell. Manifesto #3 Now… About That Autistic Hell We Was Talking about Raising… We ask awkward questions. And find new answers. We see different. Make electrifying connections. We feel patterns. To larger truths. We are passionate We adapt.Survive.Disrupt.Transform…Raising a fat middle fingerTo normal. Now, that’s the kinda hell… I’m talking about raising. How’s about neurodivergent you? One last thing… be proud. be proud you're autistic. be proud you're alive. despite everything people and nature...life...threw at you...you're still breathing. you’re still breathing… no mean feat that. I know firsthand. be proud. be damn proud. #ActuallyAutistic Outro In coming weeks, we'll challenge the medical model of autism, examining how neurodivergent individuals can build sustainable, authentic lives - with or without professional intervention. AutisticAF Out Loud podcast is supported solely by listeners like you. Know a friend or family member with a sincere interest in neurodiversity? Please consider emailing this episode to them. We believe no one should have to pay to be autistic. Many neurodivergent people can't afford subscription content. Your Ko-Fi tip of any amount helps keep this resource free for them. Or join our paid subscriber community at johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com for ongoing support. Link in description. Written in rage. Published in hope. December 2024. Greene County, Indiana. To give a one-time tip to support this work: https://ko-fi.com/autisticaf To offer ongoing support for my work, please consider becoming a paid subscriber… #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts enjoy a free subscription. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun 3:03

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Full podcast with links to available poster artwork: https://johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/p/podcast-every-clock-is-a-handgun-2ee Sensory-Friendly Discussion & Summary: https://notebooklm.google.com/notebook/30720fb4-dab4-48b9-873f-90ec1ac03b88/audio Transcript: Autistic Spoken Word: Every Clock Is a Handgun Pointed at My Head This spoken word on my autistic experience of time contains triggering topics. If you are sensitive to frank discussion of abuse, I created a sensory-friendly audio summary. Link in description ( https://notebooklm.google.com/notebook/30720fb4-dab4-48b9-873f-90ec1ac03b88/audio ) Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head THREE Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head Every tick, tick… fucking tick Tolling Fear, Doom… dread Click. Slide. Cock… click. Every night a mantra echoes through my head TV static… a crazy-making hum Singing Dream, Drempt… dead… Not done. Not done. Not done… undone. 10, 9, 8… Dread 7, 6, 5… Fear 4, 3, 2… BEEP. Shoot the moon… or the country next door Countdown. Deadline. Bow down… dead. Bound behind doors, bound in my head Pace, paces, pacing… paced Every BEEP. Of the phone. Stops… my heart. . . . I crash out with a scream for escape TWO Woods Deep woods Deepest woods My ears fly from bird song to bird song. A raptor circles then spirals Crossing lines now dead Wind steals my breath Taking words never said This skin bag of atmosphere Breathes new air When the sun rises First it is cool Then it gets warm The day passes Clouds above my head. Shaped by wind Outside my body The same wind Inside my body The same wind Yet… ONE 10, 9, 8… Dread 7, 6, 5… Fear 4, 3, 2… BEEP. Shoot the moon… or the country next door Countdown. Deadline. Bow down… dead. Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head ZERO This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Podcast: Every Clock is a Handgun in My Autistic Time 33:22

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Hey! I’m Johnny Profane… back after a 6-month bout of the "shys" to launch Season 5 of AutisticAF Out Loud. Missed you guys… But I'm here now, at least for the moment... Let's do something great with that moment, shall we? This seems like the perfect occasion to talk about Time… and how it passes. A crucial topic… whether you’re autistic or ADHD, wonder if you are, have kids or a loved one, work with some, or work to support us… I want to give you my experience of autistic time. Which is not chained to clocks or calendars. And different enough from what most folks expect… that I’ve struggled for two years… just to use my words. So I’ve turned to art. Which is both adult and intense at points… Some of the images are available as posters. And stick around to the end for a special AI-generated treat. Google's NotebookLM creates a lively dialogue between two AI commentators to break down the key ideas… especially for non-autistics. It's like having digital study buddies to help process all this time-bending stuff! Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head III Every clock is a handgun pointed at my headEvery tick, tick… fucking tickTolling Fear, Doom… dreadClick. Slide. Cock… click. Every night a mantra echoes through my headTV static… a crazy-making humSinging Dream, Drempt… dead…Not done. Not done. Not done… undone. 10, 9, 8… Dread7, 6, 5… Fear4, 3, 2… BEEP.Shoot the moon… or the country next doorCountdown. Deadline. Bow down… dead. Bound behind doors, bound in my headPace, paces, pacing… pacedEvery BEEP.Of the phone.Stops…my heart. . . . I crash out with a scream for escape II Woods Deep woods Deepest woods My ears flyfrom bird songto bird song. A raptor circles then spiralsCrossing lines now deadWind steals my breathTaking words never said This skin bag of atmosphereBreathes new air When the sun risesFirst it is coolThen it gets warmThe day passes Clouds above my head.Shaped by wind Outside my bodyThe same wind Inside my bodyThesamewind Yet… I 10, 9, 8… Dread7, 6, 5… Fear4, 3, 2… BEEP.Shoot the moon… or the country next doorCountdown. Deadline. Bow down… dead. Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head zero The Māori must be a wise people. They really get autistic time. Or at least, Keri Opai did back in 2017. That’s when he coined their new dictionary entry for autism, Takiwātanga, “in his or her own time and space.” Keri is an author, educator, and social activist. He certainly knew of the Western Medical Model of autism. But… it seems, Keri’s childhood pal, Peter, was autistic. So Keri just could not bring himself to define us as broken. No medical pathology in Keri’s words. No disabling pity. Rather, respect. Even admiration… He, and his people, saw what many of us feel. Our deep connection with natural rhythms. Our walk through the world at our own pace. On our own path. Maybe in our own dimensions of time & space. Takiwātanga. A dictionary definition born out of love. It captures the heart of my autistic life — a different walk through time and space. Reflecting on Keri's compassionate wisdom… My guess is that the Māoris, at least, are glad we're on the planet. Not because of our needs. Because of our contributions. Rooted in our different perceptions, our outsider experiences. Let’s dive deeper into Māoris, autism, and our journey through time perception. After this quick word, got bills to pay… [ad]This podcast is supported solely by listeners like you. We believe no one should have to pay to be autistic. Which is why we offer all our autistic information for free. To ensure this resource remains available for those who can't afford it, consider choosing a paid subscription at johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com. Link in the description. So, maybe the Māoris offer the understanding we autistics need. But Western science still struggles to catch up. Their “Autistic Spectrum”? A laundry list of supposed problems… like “Time Blindness.” Only a problem from an ableist point of view. In an industrialist society. Problems that might be strengths in a different time, a different place. Try as I might, I could never measure my time by checking off boxes under “Goals Met.” Like how many widgets I punch out each hour. Which has nothing to do with my quality of life... which is very much wrapped up in the joy of my process. Why do I want to make you feel how I experience time as an autistic person? How can we understand each other... care for each other... if we don't explore each other? Why do I use art? Because research trends and terms change with the times... like all things human made. I could wave my hands and quote “neuroplasticity” & “quantum effects” all day and into the night. But that would negate my words in a few years. When the whole research paradigm changes… yet again. But raw human experience endures. So… I offer you poetry. So… I offer you images.So… I welcome you into my world. #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. To leave a one-time tip of any amount, please visit Ko-Fi . Right up front, every time… We autistics are not all the same. Example: Most folks know autistic kids and adults may have sensory differences. What most don’t know? Some of us are not overwhelmed by loud noise, bright lights, big crowds.Some of us are exhilarated… by them. And some… like me… experience a bit of both… So then, what do we share in common as autists? An UN-common sensitivity and reaction to extreme sensory input. Yet, we respond in individual ways… because we’ve lived different lives. Keep that in mind as I discuss my personal experiences of time, memory… thought. Both research and personal stories show we autists experience time in ways uncommon for most humans. But each of us experiences time differently. Even as polar opposites. In My Autistic Time Want me for dinner? I may bust a gut to please you. AND yet… I’ll end up mumbling some variation of “I have no freaking clue how so much time could have passed... um, again.” But get me focused… particularly on my passions… writing or music?I effortlessly monitor… fractions of a second...To hit precisely…The right hesitation… of that one… musical note.Or the perfect combo… of word choice… and white space…That.Makes…The phrase. Now, weirdly, any period much longer than a day? All kinda melts together. I can forget to send in a vital Social Security form, thinking, “I just got it yesterday. I still got time…” Weeks later. Months later. Too much later… Or I might pick up a convo in mid-sentence when I see a friend. From the last time I saw him. Which coulda been two jobs… and a career or so... ago. Like I have one button on my clock, “NOW.” And for bonus points, its alarm function has no mega-freaking clue… How long it takes to complete any task invented by any human.At any time in history.Or any space we’ve ever occupied. "Sure, hon, I’ll make dinner tonight! That fake rice-a-roni I make takes 14 minutes to boil. I’ll see ya in about 20.” One annoyed emoji and an hour later… 🤬 I thumb-type back, "Oh, my g-d! Never takes this long. Sorry, BRT.” So, mebbe you think you can help me out with my little schedule problem. Say, give me a time limit? A gentle reminder? Which makes my brain freeze. Then, my heart follows. Ass remaining firmly implanted in front of some screen or other. Planning? Keeping commitments? Deadlines? Family life? Education? Jobs? CAREERS…? How’m I supposed to pull ANY of those off? Did I mention there were just two things that almost kept me out of kindergarten? Sure, the “Tying Your Shoes” gotcha. But, omfg, learning to read a clock? Civilized time requires commitment, plans, deadlines, goals, milestones, and you know, actual production… Let’s say, I’ve burned through dozens of jobs… average lifespan less than 6 months.At least 6 careers… average span a year or two.Marriages… 3. Let’s say, we just don’t go there… Civilized time is beyond me. #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts, become a free subscriber. To support my work, consider a paid subscription. To leave a one-time tip of any amount, please visit Ko-Fi . Why? Let’s Explore Autistic Dark Time… Einstein broke the news. Time is relative. For all of us. He said time is a measure of the curvature of space-time between two events… basically. Different in different places, depending on how fast you’re moving at the time…Physics says, he’s right.So far.At least if you’re bigger than an atom.Most places… That we know about… And it seems as if most humans who I know, in their own way also measure time by events. What happened. How often. How much a month is this gonna cost me...? But my autistic time isn’t a measure of events and the distances between them. I measure the depth of feeling and its quality as those events unfold. From highs to lows. From joy... to pain. It’s like most humans experience time and space the way Newton or Einstein would. According to elegant rules… in precisely measurable dimensions…filled with matter, energy, and consumable products. Doesn’t matter how you measure it. Either Imperial OR metric units make equal sense…if you’re punching out widgets.With guys carrying stopwatches hovering and lurking in the shadows… counting your pieces per hour.Every bit of that modern industrial world makes sense… in that scene.Convenience packaging.Fast food. Microwaves... Low monthly payments.Superhighways.This season's fashions.Time-limited sales.Slip on shoes.No-iron shirts.“Skip ad” buttons… But me? I’m stuck in some quantum world with weird dimensions… like “spin” & “charm”... Things you cannot count on the factory floor. It could be that Joy quarks ... like Light quarks… can be waves or they may be particles. But they certainly disappear if you observe them too closely… Time doesn’t flow smoothly for me. It’s more like waves and troughs. If I’m interested in what you’re saying, what I’m reading… hours fly by. In fact, if I’m really into my passion… painting, cooking, whatev… time has no meaning. I’m outside of time. In a place indistinguishable from… Joy. But boredom?A slow, annoyinghands-and-knees crawlacross wooden schoolroom floor boards…taking secret, furtive over-the-shoulder glancesat a second handstubbornlysweeping. So, depression, anxiety… DEADLINES? They grind out, second by agonizing second, in my gut. My very definition of… Dread. Now, shoehorn my autistic experience into your punchclock world. I'm autistic. Pretty sure ADHD, too. In my 70s, every ticking second is a countdown to some duty, obligation, deadline... death… No. That's a lie. Reality? Hours of numbness... obsessively flicking through screens... frightened to look away and notice the time of day... the season.Leading to days of dull semi-awareness... punctuated by trips to the bathroom. Between delivered pizzas.And moments of terror when despite my best dim-witted efforts, I see 9:27 out of the corner of my eye. And the sun screams, "Hey, it's morning. You gotta get going. You got stuff to do." Or maybe it's 3:19 am. So the moon shames me with, "Well, there goes another day you didn't meet expectations." Every timepiece I can remember was like a prison guard's gun... the real power enforcing order.The calendar that told the doctor that 2 weeks late is too long... so he forced my delivery with forceps.Or the school bell that announced precisely when I must be silent... or pee.The alarms shrieking at the factory door.Time clocks measuring the distance to starvation.Calendars counting days til the next vacation, back to school, parental promotion... and move to a new town.Report cards.Bank clocks, clock towers and multiple-choice tests… all counting down seconds to disaster. Procrastination… The Black Hole I Hide in Let me take you into a moment that captures the essence of my struggle with time. Circling around a pizza… that American Icon of Hurry-Up-and-Wait Fast Food Frenzy… "Where's the waitress...???" I glance at the watch on my wrist. Again. A plaintive cry in my head… "That paper was due a WEEK ago..." I'm sitting in a pizza joint. On an old-skool tubular steel and fiberglass chair. Dirty, glaringly orange, butt killer. The kind grade schools stacked against walls... back before Kennedy was shot. "Fuck. I wanted a pizza cuz it thought it'd be fast..." I'm checking the clock robotically every few minutes. It's like 9 at night. The grad school prof believed in me. He knew I needed an A for my GPA. Promised he wouldn't mark me down for lateness. IF it was my usual quality. AND I get my 10 pages in… “Before class. Tomorrow. 10 am.” Tapping his watch. “No excuses.” I had a great topic… "Challenges of Cognitive Therapy for Middle-Old Senior Clients." BUT I couldn't make it come. Hadn't even started. I paced for hours in my apartment. Nothing. Zip. NADA. So, my bright idea? “I know, walk the 4 blocks and grab a quick slice. Kill two birds. Get my blood pumping. Get dinner outta the way. I’ll write all night if I gotta… When I get home.” An hour and a half later, after waitress delays, problems with the credit card, bumping into that classmate I couldn’t duck… As I trudge home on drizzly Albany streets, my new plan…? “Um, I’ll get up at 5 am. Pump out a page an hour… He’ll still take it… if I skate into class at the last minute.” Right. Couple weeks later… I get The Letter. …after careful consideration by the full Committee…. blah-blah-blah-de-blah-BLAH…. Effective immediately withdrawn from the Graduate program and cease issuing your stipend. But… Pizza? Save time? Prioritize?! Every link in my logic made so much sense… at the Time. It always does. Til I look back. And feel stupid. I can never be certain of any commitment I make… no matter how heavily they weigh on me. Even ones that kill paychecks. Kill careers. Destroy marriages. Even the most dear ones that I make to myself. My dreams. How much does a dream weigh? Enough to slump shoulders apparently. And strangely? Even more as they die… The Spin-Charm of My Emotional Experience But out of this Time Stream Meltdown chaos, I glimpse a different way of being. A rhythm more in tune with my Autistic+ADHD nature. See, this is what I’ve come to believe. Time-centered agony is not my natural state. Not in the environment I was built for… the Pre-Industrial… In the life I was designed to live… before Henry Ford’s punch clock… Because in the world I was born foryou don't need a watch, an alarm, a daily plannernot even a Bible, self-help book… or scholar’s studyto know when the sun riseswhen to eatwhen to peewhen to pick berries on the fence row when the sun setswhen to sleep. My natural state is this… When the sun rises First it is cool Then it gets warm The day passes Clouds above my head. Shaped by wind Outside my body The same wind Inside my body The same wind Out of the Blue… and into the Black… Data From my lived experience to the lab: What does Science say about autistic time? I only know my personal experience. So it seems only fair... I must give you highlights of current research on autistic and neurodivergent time. Notes in “References and Further Reading” in the description. * Research on time perception in autistic individuals shows mixed results. Some studies show autistic differences. Some don’t. Particularly when it comes to complex tasks. But the complexity of the task may influence time perception differences. * A study in 2022 found there were no notable differences for autistic adults. At least not in interval and event timing judgments. This challenges the notion that autistic individuals sense time differently. * Research suggests autistic folks may struggle synchronizing the passage of time. When matching visual and auditory stimuli. * Encyclopedic Overview. The article "Time Experience in Autism Spectrum Disorder" discusses theories of time perception in autism. * Controversial Sources. Note that sources like Autism Speaks are controversial in the neurodiversity community. Their research is included for completeness. But perhaps be cautious. So after trying to use my words for 2 years…to just explain... Word after word after sentence after paragraph after page… utterly failing to strike at the heart of they call my Time Blindness, my Time Trauma, or what I focus on… my Time Joy… I offer you simply this… My art. I have no agenda. I have no tips to give you. So I offer my life… Take what you can use. And leave the rest. Time’s short. And it moves in one direction. Always shorter. Outro Funny how time works – 7 decades in, and my autistic experience keeps evolving. Variable ability? It's a whole new ballgame in your golden years. Not just about skills anymore – it's about navigating each day's random landscape. Joy and autism, they're still my constant companions, even if they wear different masks now. Stay tuned – I've got more to share about this wild ride through time. Google NotebookLM Podcast Summary Hey everyone, welcome back for another deep dive. Hi. There are you ready to explore the experience of time itself? I'm intrigued because we were diving into your source material today, going deep into excerpts from pasted text. Specifically, we're looking at a podcast transcript called every clock is a handgun in my autistic time, by Johnny profane. And let me tell you, profane who identifies as both autistic and ADHD, really doesn't hold back. Trust me, this deep dive is about way more than just autism. It makes us think about everything we think we know about what time even is. Wow. Yeah, it's a fascinating one. And to help unpack the science and the wider implications of profanes experiences, we're joined by, well, an expert in, well, you could say neuroscience, but really in the experience of time itself. Happy to be here. Thanks for joining us. Let's dive right in. So profane starts off with this really powerful metaphor. You know, he says every clock is a handgun pointed at my head. It's such a visceral image. It is, it is like it really gets under your skin, yeah, and he's really talking about that, that feeling of dread, you know that we often kind of associate with deadlines and obligations, that constant pressure of time just measured out in seconds and minutes and hours, palpable, that anxiety just in those words, right? But then profane contrasts this with something totally different when he feels outside of time, totally immersed in joy and flow interesting, almost like what we call a flow state, right? Yeah, yeah, exactly. The feeling of being so engrossed in something that you lose track of everything else, right, time just fades away. And while lots of people experience these flow states, they can be especially intense for neurodivergent individuals. Yeah, and profane actually gives a really relatable example. He talks about struggling with deadlines like this 10 page paper he had to write, and how frustrating it was for both him and the people around him. Sounds like a classic example of what many people with ADHD and autism experience, time blindness, right? A very real struggle to accurately estimate how long tasks will take. And I think it's interesting how profane brings in this Maori concept of takawatanga, meaning in his or her own time and space. It is such a powerful concept, yeah, because it's not just a definition, right? It's a completely different way of looking at neurodiversity as a different way of being, not a deficit. And this idea of takiwa Tonga makes you realize how often we impose our sense of time on others, right, especially in work or school, absolutely. And it begs the question, what if we embraced a more flexible approach, yeah, one that recognizes different rhythms and ways of working. Could that be beneficial for everyone? And this is where things get even more interesting, you know, because profane doesn't just rely on his personal experiences. He actually, like goes into the actual science of autistic time perception, right? Which I thought was really interesting, yeah, he does mention that, you know, the research is still developing, and it can be kind of contradictory, of course, yeah, which is important to keep in mind, right, as we sort of explore this a little bit further. Yeah, it's a complex field, and there's still a lot we're learning about how our brains perceive time. For example, you know, some studies using EEG have shown that autistic individuals, they might process temporal information differently, like, at a neural level, it's like their internal clock is, like wired a bit differently, in a way, yeah. But then, like, profane points out, there are other studies, behavioral studies using tasks like time reproduction and those Haven't you know, consistently found these clear differences between, you know, autistic and non autistic individuals, so it's Yeah, so how do we make sense of that, right? When it seems like those are kind of contradictory findings, right? Well, that's the thing about scientific research, yeah, it's not always a straight line to the answer, right, right, right? So instead of seeing them as contradictions, maybe these findings highlight just how complex the experience of time really is, okay, and it's probably influenced by a whole bunch of factors, both individual and contextual, which makes it a really personal experience. When you think about it, it really makes you kind of go back and think, Huh, you know, maybe we take a lot for granted, yeah? And we're talking about something like time, right? Yeah, which, I guess, leads to the big question, right? Like, why does any of this even matter for those of us listening who, you know, maybe aren't autistic, haven't had that, you know, direct experience with autism, I think that's such an important point to bring up, because one of the biggest takeaways here is, you know, I think it's empathy, yeah, when we really try to understand how other people experience the world differently, even something, you know, as basic as time, yeah, it allows us to connect on this whole other level, yeah, yeah, like we're stepping outside of ourselves for a minute, exactly, seeing things through someone else's eyes, right? And I think, you know, profanes experiences really challenge us. Yeah? #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. To leave a one-time tip of any amount, please visit Ko-Fi . #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. To leave a one-time tip of any amount, please visit Ko-Fi . Key Takeaways (summary by Perplexity) * Time Perception and Anxiety The poem vividly depicts the intense anxiety many autistic individuals experience around time and deadlines. Lines like "Every clock is a handgun pointed at my head" and the countdown sequence illustrate how time pressure can feel threatening and overwhelming. For many autistic people, difficulties with time perception and executive functioning can make deadlines and time management extremely stressful. The ticking clock becomes a source of dread rather than a neutral tool. * Sensory Sensitivities The poem references sensory experiences like "TV static" and a "crazy-making hum", highlighting how autistic individuals often have heightened sensory sensitivities. Sounds or stimuli that may not bother others can be intensely distracting or distressing. * Need for Nature and Sensory Regulation The second part of the poem describes being in nature, with vivid sensory details about birds, wind, and clouds. Many autistic people find nature soothing and use it for sensory regulation and stress relief. The contrast between the anxious first section and calmer nature section illustrates this. * Internal Experience vs. External Pressures The poem juxtaposes the speaker's internal sensory world with external pressures like deadlines. This reflects how autistic individuals often experience a disconnect between their internal experiences and external expectations. * Difficulty with Change and Transitions The abrupt shifts between sections and the countdown sequences may represent the challenges many autistic people face with changes and transitions. Moving between different mental states or environments can be jarring. * Intense Emotions and Experiences The vivid, intense language throughout the poem reflects how many autistic individuals experience emotions and sensations very intensely. What may seem minor to others can feel overwhelming. In summary, this poem powerfully conveys common autistic experiences around time perception, anxiety, sensory sensitivities, and the contrast between internal experiences and external pressures. It highlights the intense and often overwhelming nature of these experiences for many autistic individuals. References & Further Reading: Neither exhaustive nor comprehensive. Articles that made me think. 1. Autism Research - Systematic Review https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6852160/ 2. APA - Time Perception Study 2022 https://psycnet.apa.org/record/2022-55325-001 3. Spectrum News - Time Perception https://www.spectrumnews.org/news/time-perception-problems-may-explain-autism-symptoms/ 4. Encyclopedia of Autism Spectrum Disorders - Time Experience https://link.springer.com/10.1007/978-1-4614-6435-8_102354-1 5. Spectrum News - Time is a Slippery Concept( https://www.spectrumnews.org/opinion/for-people-with-autism-time-is-slippery-concept/ 6. PubMed - Study on Complex Tasks https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31336032/ 7. Wiley Online Library - Research Article https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/abs/10.1002/aur.2170 #AutisticAF Out Loud Newsletter is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. To leave a one-time tip of any amount, please visit Ko-Fi. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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One Autistic Voice: Escapin Up The Country 2:21

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An Example of Exclusive Subscriber Content… Raw, Real, Authentic. I’m letting my one austic voice do all the talking this time. I kinda like that. AutisticAF Out Loud - One Autistic Voice. Hmm… Here’s my first thank you. My first real attempt at being live on camera. It’s an autistic thing. No mask. No cosplay. I explain after you hit the button…. Anyway, this one’s for you. All the subscribers. You were here before I had the spoons to make it happen. Now that I’m on the mend, I intend to make the most of subStack for you. Promise. -Johnny This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass… s4e3 17:39

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Shattering Neurodivergent Stereotypes: A Raw Dialogue for Tomorrow's Generations Description : Embark on a transformative journey with Johnny Profane in this compelling episode of AutisticAF Out Loud, titled "Actually Autistic? Whatever Doesn't Kill Your Unique Neurodivergent Ass…". This conversation goes beyond dismantling societal myths and stereotypes about neurodivergence; it's a call to action for creating a more understanding and inclusive culture for neurodivergent children and future generations. Beyond the Success Myth : Delve into the often overlooked struggles against poverty and trauma, as Johnny shares insights from his own life, challenging the glossy narratives that dominate mainstream discussions about neurodivergence. Debunking Harmful Ideologies : This episode takes a critical stance against toxic positivity and the misleading belief that adversity naturally breeds strength, offering a more nuanced view of the neurodivergent experience. The Truth About Disability : Moving past the inspirational narrative, Johnny discusses the real, day-to-day challenges faced by neurodivergent individuals, debunking myths of hidden superpowers in favor of a more grounded understanding. Critiquing Consumer Culture : Explore how consumer culture perpetuates dissatisfaction and alienation, particularly affecting those who feel marginalized, and discuss the importance of fostering a culture that values individuals for who they are, not what they consume. Valuing True Resilience : Celebrate the authentic resilience and strength within the neurodivergent community, recognizing the courage it takes to navigate a world that often seems indifferent or hostile to their needs. Crafting a Future of Inclusion : Highlighting the episode's closing message, Johnny Profane emphasizes the importance of building a supportive, inclusive culture that honors neurodivergent experiences. This isn't just about challenging stereotypes; it's about laying the groundwork for a world where neurodivergent children can grow up feeling valued, understood, and empowered. A Call to Create Change : Engage in this critical dialogue not just as listeners, but as active participants in shaping a more inclusive future. This episode is an invitation to everyone—parents, educators, allies—to join in the effort to ensure that the next generation of neurodivergent individuals inherits a culture that celebrates their unique contributions and supports their growth. Key Insights : Challenge and redefine the narratives surrounding neurodivergence and disability. Understand the damaging impact of societal expectations and toxic positivity on neurodivergent individuals. Acknowledge the real challenges and celebrate the genuine strengths within the neurodivergent community. Advocate for a shift towards a more inclusive, understanding culture that prepares a better world for neurodivergent children. Join the Movement : Dive deeper into the conversation about creating a supportive environment for neurodivergent individuals. Share your insights, experiences, and hopes for the future, contributing to a broader understanding and acceptance. Be part of the change that ensures a more inclusive world for neurodivergent children and future generations. Themes : Breaking Stereotypes, Authentic Experiences, Inclusive Future Tags : Neurodivergent Realities, Beyond Disability Myths, Toxic Positivity Critique, Future of Neurodiversity, Inclusive Culture Building, Empowering Neurodivergent Voices, Advocacy for Neurodivergent Children, Autism, Autistic, Actually Autistic, Autism Podcast, Autistic Podcast, Neurodivergent Podcast --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group, s4e2 14:29

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Autistic Authenticity: Navigating Identity and Community Description : Dive into a candid conversation on AutisticAF Out Loud, where we tackle the often blurred lines between being autistic, belonging to identity groups, and maintaining personal integrity. "Autism? It's a State of Being. NOT an Identity Group" serves as a bold reminder that autism is an inherent part of us, not a badge to be worn or a club to join. Through this episode, we explore the delicate balance between finding community support and preserving our unique autistic identity. We question the constructs of identity groups, challenge the notion of toxic conformity, and celebrate the unapologetic expression of our autistic selves. Ideal for anyone touched by autism or intrigued by the diversity of human experience, this episode encourages a dialogue about authenticity, resilience, and the journey towards understanding our true selves within the vast spectrum of neurodiversity. Embracing Authenticity in Neurodiversity Unveiling the True Self Beyond Autism's Labels A dive into personal identity amidst the complexities of neurodiversity. The delicate balance between individuality and community expectations. Sharing a journey of self-awareness, challenging societal norms, and finding joy in authenticity. Do you see reflections of your own experiences? Join us as we navigate this personal voyage. Explore the Depths: A candid examination of autism as an innate aspect of existence, not a societal group. The transition from external pressures to genuine self-expression within the autistic spectrum. Discovering moments of genuine self-recognition and the simple pleasures of living authentically. Intrigued by the intricate details? Engage with us as we unravel these layers. Participate in the Dialogue: Connect with a narrative that questions mainstream perceptions and honors the diversity of neurodiversity. Contribute your insights and experiences as we delve into the nuances of authentic autistic living. Foster a conversation that broadens the understanding and acceptance of neurodiversity. Inspired by our collective journeys? Let your voice join in and enrich the discourse. Themes: Personal Identity Exploration, Neurodiversity Embrace, Authentic Living Tags: Autistic Personal Identity, Authentic Neurodiversity Experience, Autism Beyond Labels, Genuine Autistic Expression, Neurodiverse Individuality Insights, Rejecting Conformity in Autism, Celebrating Autistic Authenticity, Embracing Neurodiverse Narratives --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Slouching Toward Joy: My Best 6 Phases To An Actually Autistic Relief, s4e1 16:49

منذ 1 year16:49

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Embracing Autism's Raw Truths in My 70s Description: Dive deep with Johnny Profane into a journey unlike any other—a raw, unfiltered exploration of living with autism discovered later in life. This episode peels back the layers of daily life, challenges, and the unexpected joys found in the simplest moments. "Facing the reality of autism in my 70s, I share the gritty process of acceptance, the quest for authentic self-expression, and those radiant sparks of joy that light up the path." If you're seeking a story of real-life resilience, unexpected turns, and the beauty of embracing your true self, join us. For everyone navigating the complex tapestry of neurodiversity, this conversation is for you. Let's delve into the heart of autism's challenges and triumphs—no holds barred. Embracing Autism in My 70s The awakening to autism's reality after 70 years of life. The gritty, day-to-day acceptance and the small, radiant joys of being truly oneself. A personal narrative of discovery, challenge, and the unexpected rewards found in authenticity. Feel a connection? Reflect on your journey as we delve into mine. Dive Deep to Discover: An unvarnished look at the late diagnosis and its profound impact. The journey from societal conformity to embracing a unique autistic identity. The moments of clarity and joy that illuminate the path of self-discovery. Curious about the nuances? Join me as we explore the layers. Join the Conversation: Engage with a story that challenges conventional narratives and celebrates the neurodiverse experience. Share your thoughts and stories as we explore the complexities of living authentically with autism. Support a dialogue that elevates understanding and acceptance of neurodiversity. Moved by our shared stories? Your voice can amplify the message. Themes: Authentic Self-Discovery, Neurodiversity Celebration, Late-Life Awakening Tags: Autism in Later Life, Late Diagnosis Autism Journey, Embracing Neurodiversity After 70, Authentic Autism Experience, Senior Autistic Self-Discovery, Neurodiverse Life Reflections, Gritty Autism Acceptance, Autistic Joy in Adulthood, Unfiltered Autistic Narrative, Neurodiversity Celebration Stories --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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The Night this Autistic Adult Broke Free: An Autistic A.F. Halloween Tale, s3e8 8:03

منذ 1 year8:03

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###🎙️ Unmasking at the Late Night Picture Show: One Autistic's Reckoning * One night that demolished a lifetime of conformity * One bodacious shift... from meditation cult to liberated living * One tale of indulgence, rebellion & the embrace of an #autistic identity 👉 Click to witness the transformative night. ###👂 Tune In to Discover: * Hear the vivid recount of a night that broke all the rules * Follow the path from a monk's silence to the kick-ass self-acceptance * Wrap yourself up in a story that speaks to the heart of #neurodivergence 👉 Ready for a riveting tale? Hit play.. join an evening of realization. 🎧 Engage with Us: * Discover stories that disrupt the socially approved narrative... and speak to the soul * Comment & dialog with us as we dissect the layers of an authentic neurodiverse life * Support our quest to raise up the voices of the #neurodiverse community 🚨 Moved by our mission? Subscribe free to our collective journey to authenticity. 🏷️ Tags: #AutismFamily, Autism Family, #NeurodivergentPride, Neurodivergent Pride, #AutismLife, Autism Life, #AutismAcceptance, Autism Acceptance Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Homeless & Autistic...? Pt 2 - Theo Schools Me in Actually Autistic Joy s3e7 14:40

منذ 1 year14:40

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🎙️ Episode Highlights: The Myth of "You Can Do Anything": An Autistic Lens (Must-listen for adult autistics) The Hidden Costs of Conventional Education on Autistic Lives (Essential for educators) Curious? Keep listening. 👂 Listen and Learn: Step into the intricate world of autistic experiences, as Johnny Profane and Theo dissect the failures and biases of the educational system. (A must-hear for mental health professionals) Intrigued? Hit subscribe to journey with us. 🎧 Get Involved: Subscribe for a torrent of insights 🌪️ (Highly recommended for parents & families) Comment and enrich our community 🗨️ (Join the conversation, employers) Support our mission for change 🚀 (Partners, this is for you) Ready to engage? Leave a comment or consider monthly support. 🏷️ Tags: AutismPodcast, AutisticJoy, MentalHealth, Education, SystemFailures Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Homeless & Autistic? Theo Taught Me Actually Autistic Joy in School s3E6 16:18

منذ 1 year16:18

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🎙️ Inside This Episode: • The Hidden World of Theo, a Homeless Autistic... Scholar • Privilege vs. Failure: An Autistic Perspective • The Raw Essence of Autistic Joy ❓ Curious? Keep listening to uncover these hidden gems. 🌈 Why You Need to Listen: Step into a realm where societal norms crumble, flashing a spotlight on the true meaning of autistic joy. This 4-part series on Autistic Education kicks off with Johnny Profane guiding you from the streets of university-town Bloomington to the depths of your own soul. A must-listen for parents, educators, mental health professionals, and anyone keen on neurodiversity. 🔎 Intrigued? Hit subscribe to journey with us. 🎧 Engage With Us: • Subscribe for an open floodgate of insights 🎢 • Comment and be part of our community 🗨️ • Support us monthly and fuel our mission 🚀 ✏️ Ready to engage? Leave a comment or consider monthly support. 🏷️ Tags: #AutismPodcast #AutisticJoy #Neurodiversity #MentalHealth #Education Searching for more? Use these tags to explore related content. Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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This Autistic’s Fantasy: So, He Asks about My History… What I told My Doctor, s3e5 13:00

منذ 1 year13:00

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Perfectionism ain’t working for me… maybe not for Autistic AF dot you, either. So here’s something, shall we say, a little “rawer” than my usual /rant… Trascript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/09/29/this-autistics-fantasy-so-he-asks-about-my-history-what-i-told-my-doctor/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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“Calm Down!” Why is this the WORST Advice You Can Give an Autistic Person?” 4:59

منذ 2 years4:59

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Ever been told to ‘calm down’? How’d it feel? Well, this autistic feels like exploding! : https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/26/calm-down-why-is-this-the-worst-advice-you-can-give-an-autistic-person/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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"Neurodivergent Kiss: Autistic Fairytale... Or Fabulous Marriage?" 6:25

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Folks ask about my #neurodivergent marriage. Umm… over and over. Like… “Is that even possible?” Gotta story for ya… Transcript: https://autisticaf.me/2023/08/18/neurodivergent-kiss-autistic-fairytale-or-fabulous-marriage/ #AutisticAF Out Loud Podcast Listen & Subscribe: Apple https://neon.ly/mDd3e Spotify https://neon.ly/p1Vay Audible https://neon.ly/vkXa1 Stitcher https://neon.ly/vx5Zn PocketCasts https://neon.ly/NLL3O Amazon/Alexa https://neon.ly/mnOeq Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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Season 3's mission? To boldly explore living authentically autistic... out loud. That first story? Carving out a safe space to be our true autistic selves... a big part of that quest. Support the show --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/autisticaf/message This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit johnnyprofaneknapp.substack.com/subscribe…

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