i slip between words i wish i'd said and words that disappear.

not like the other podcasts: raw, unfiltered, real.

It's November, and I can't quite tell if I feel anything, or maybe I’m just here, observing, wrapped in two layers, fading in and out of scenes from some half-remembered life. Thoughts blur, words stumble; it's like I’m watching myself from the edge of something vast and dark. I talk about the fractured moments, the questions that flicker in and out of clarity, and the feeling of holding it all just barely together. Listen if you want; I’m mostly just here. Topics in today’s episode: self-reflection, suicidal ideation, society’s views on mental health, personal struggles with hopelessness, existential musings, loneliness in crowds, fear and strength, mental health narratives, the strange peace of lurking online, personal truths and half-truths, dark humor, the haunting beauty of isolation, Overwatch reflections, childhood nostalgia, rebuilding from trauma, fleeting nature of joy, existential absurdities, healing from hurt