Two Broken Engagements

Life is Hard, God is Good

I had an idol of marriage.

Engagement is so special because it’s this idea of “already, but not yet.”

You have your chosen person and you get to celebrate & plan your lives together.

Engagement is where we are as believers - we have accepted His proposal of dying for us and rising up from the grave so that we can be with Him.

If you have said YES to His proposal, we are just waiting on the wedding celebration when He returns and then we get to spend eternity with Him!

We are the Bride of Christ.

Weddings on earth are a reflection of how Christ loves the Church.

Marriage on earth is a reflection of spending eternity in heaven with God.

So I saw how engagement and marriage reflects God, and I wanted it so badly. I put engagement and marriage above God.
After having two broken engagements, I was disappointed because my god of engagement & marriage failed.

I was putting all my value, my life plans, my identity into my marital status.

Marriage can glorify God, but it is not the end goal.

The end goal is God, not that which glorifies Him.
God healed my mind and soul.

Not that I was given a replacement but I was reminded of my purpose.

I was reminded of Who God is, and that He is always good.

That He is my ultimate Good.

That nothing else truly matters in this life.

For the first time in my life, through lots of healing,

I came to a place where I was okay if I never got married.

Because God is my source of joy

God is my source of purpose

God is Who I am made for.