Billie: Wrestling with Myself

Keep the Mess

Billie talks about missionary culture, purity culture, her favorite Bible stories, and how she is learning to engage with gender expectations and her emotions.

Content Warnings for talk about spiritual abuse, transphobia, queer phobia, suicidality

This episode was recorded February 11, 2023.

Next episode will be released July 6, 2023.

Definitions:

Egg - not knowing yet that you are trans; when your egg has cracked you have realized that you are trans

Gnostic - the connotation people have with this is that it was a Christian group that believed we were dualistic beings, flesh and spirit, and that the flesh was sinful.

Sanctification: a Christian term; the process of becoming more and more Christlike due to the Holy Spirit working within you.

Sapphic: sexual attraction or activity between women

References:

Queer Christian Fellowship: an organization that provides support for queer Christians

Nanette, comedy special by Hannah Gadsby

I Kissed Dating Goodbye, a book by Joshua Harris that was used heavily in purity culture/inspired part of purity culture; he has since stopped the printing of new books because he believed it was harmful

When the Body Says No, a book by Gabor Mate

Genesis 32:22-32, Jacob wrestling with God/angel

Job 40-41, God responding to Job by talking about the Behemoth and Leviathan

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