Tiffany Yu is the CEO & Founder of Diversability, an award-winning social enterprise to elevate disability pride; the Founder of the Awesome Foundation Disability Chapter, a monthly micro-grant that has awarded $92.5k to 93 disability projects in 11 countries; and the author of The Anti-Ableist Manifesto: Smashing Stereotypes, Forging Change, and Building a Disability-Inclusive World. As a person with visible and invisible disabilities stemming from a car crash, Tiffany has built a career on disability solidarity. Now that she has found success, she works to expand a network of people with disabilities and their allies to decrease stigmas around disability and create opportunities for disabled people in America. Episode Chapters 0:00 Intro 1:26 When do we choose to share our disability stories? 4:12 Jay’s disability story 8:35 Visible and invisible disabilities 13:10 What does an ally to the disability community look like? 16:34 NoBodyIsDisposable and 14(c) 21:26 How does Tiffany’s investment banking background shape her advocacy? 27:47 Goodbye and outro For video episodes, watch on www.youtube.com/@therudermanfamilyfoundation Stay in touch: X: @JayRuderman | @RudermanFdn LinkedIn: Jay Ruderman | Ruderman Family Foundation Instagram: All About Change Podcast | Ruderman Family Foundation To learn more about the podcast, visit https://allaboutchangepodcast.com/…
Welcome to Wonderland Unlocked! I'm Courtney, your Peer Support Specialist, excited to guide you through a journey inspired by Alice in Wonderland. We'll explore mental health, personal growth, and self-discovery through enchanting tales, offering insights on identity and emotional resilience. Whether you seek inspiration or feel lost, this space is for you to embrace the adventure and uncover the magic. So, grab your favorite tea or coffee, and let’s unlock the wisdom of Wonderland together!
Welcome to Wonderland Unlocked! I'm Courtney, your Peer Support Specialist, excited to guide you through a journey inspired by Alice in Wonderland. We'll explore mental health, personal growth, and self-discovery through enchanting tales, offering insights on identity and emotional resilience. Whether you seek inspiration or feel lost, this space is for you to embrace the adventure and uncover the magic. So, grab your favorite tea or coffee, and let’s unlock the wisdom of Wonderland together!
Episode 135: Chapter 4: Bending Time and Space Series 8 – Courtney’s Crooked Crown In Wonderland, time doesn’t tick—it twists. In this chapter, we explore the warped reality of trauma time: when past pain feels present, when one word can send you spiraling years back, and when healing never follows a straight line. Emotional flashbacks, time blindness, and the disorienting loops of a dysregulated nervous system all come to the table. I share how time bends when you live with BPD and neurodivergence—how moments stretch too long, disappear too fast, or repeat until you're dizzy. This episode is for anyone who's ever felt like they're stuck in a moment no one else can see. Because healing isn’t linear—and in Wonderland, it never was. “It’s not that I’m lost in time—it’s that time keeps losing me.”…
Episode 134: Chapter 3: Whispers of the Ancient Trees Series 8 – Courtney’s Crooked Crown Deep in the woods of Wonderland, the noise fades—and the whispers begin. In this episode, we pause in the stillness of the ancient trees, where memory clings like moss and the past is never truly silent. Here, I reflect on inherited pain, the echoes of childhood, and the quiet truths that shaped who I’ve become. The forest doesn't yell—it reminds. Of everything you tried to forget. Of everything you still carry. This chapter is about listening—to your roots, your wounds, and the voices you silenced to survive. Because sometimes the most important healing comes not from shouting your story, but from finally hearing your own. 🌳 “Even the trees remember what we try to bury.”…
Episode 133: Chapter 2: The Chaotic Tea Party Series 8 – Courtney’s Crooked Crown Pull up a chair—but don’t expect order. In this chapter, we enter the chaos of the tea party: a place where logic unravels, emotions spill, and nothing stays in its cup. This episode explores what it feels like to navigate relationships that swing wildly—where one moment you’re the guest of honor, and the next, you’re not even invited. It’s a reflection of life with emotional dysregulation, neurodivergence, and the exhausting dance of trying to be understood when your rhythm is constantly misread. This isn’t just a party—it’s a performance, a survival tactic, and a desperate search for connection in the noise. Because when the table’s always tipping, you learn to balance your teacup with trembling hands and a smile that hides the storm. 🫖 “Just because the tea is spilled doesn’t mean it’s worthless.”…
Episode 132: Chapter 1: The Fall into Wonderland Series 8 – Courtney’s Crooked Crown The fall wasn’t graceful—and neither was the life that led up to it. In this opening chapter of Courtney’s Crooked Crown, we tumble headfirst into Wonderland, not with whimsy, but with the weight of reality: abandonment wounds, identity crises, and the sting of never quite being “enough.” This isn’t Alice’s fairytale descent—this is mine. With a crooked crown slipping sideways and old scars bleeding into new beginnings, I unpack what it means to crash through expectations, fall apart, and still somehow land where you were always meant to be. This episode is raw, personal, and unapologetically real. The fall broke me—but maybe, it also woke me up.…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters – A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 131 – To My Hope, the White Rabbit’s Relentless Chase In this episode, we write a letter to something fragile but fierce—hope. The kind that looks like the White Rabbit: always running, always just out of reach, but never fully gone. To My Hope, the White Rabbit’s Relentless Chase is about those moments when you almost give up, but something—some small spark—keeps you chasing the life you haven’t lived yet. It’s a love letter to the version of you that keeps going, even when you're exhausted. The part that believes there’s something better, something more, even after all the heartbreak, silence, and shadows. We explore what it means to run toward healing, even when it’s messy. Even when you're late. Even when you’re scared. Because sometimes, hope doesn’t wait for you to be ready. It just runs—and asks you to follow. Welcome to Wonderland Unlocked. Let’s chase the White Rabbit together. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters – A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 130 – The Mad Hatter’s Tea Party: When Chaos Meets Creativity In this episode, we pull up a mismatched chair at the Mad Hatter’s table and pour a cup of truth. The Mad Hatter’s Tea Party: When Chaos Meets Creativity explores what it means to grow up feeling “too much”—too emotional, too unpredictable, too chaotic—and how that same energy can become the source of our greatest magic. This is a letter to the misunderstood parts of ourselves: the spiraling thoughts, the impulsive choices, the wild ideas that didn’t always make sense to others but made us feel alive. We explore how creativity and chaos often come from the same well—and how healing means learning to sip, not drown. Because sometimes, what others call madness is just misunderstood brilliance—and sometimes the messiest tea party holds the deepest truths. Welcome to Wonderland Unlocked. The table is set. Let’s begin. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters – A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 129 – To the Dormouse Who Slept Through My Pain In this episode, we open a letter sealed in silence—written to the one who napped through the noise of our heartbreak. To the Dormouse Who Slept Through My Pain is a raw, reflective message to the people who looked the other way when they should’ve looked closer. When pain filled the room, they stayed asleep. When you reached out, they curled deeper into comfort. This is a letter for the ones who stayed quiet—too timid, too tired, or too afraid to face your truth. It’s about what it feels like to be ignored in your darkest moments and how that absence becomes its own kind of harm. But it’s also a letter about waking up—not just them, but you. Reclaiming your voice when theirs was too soft, or too late. Because even when someone sleeps through your pain… you don’t have to. Welcome to Wonderland Unlocked. Let’s open this letter together. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 128: To Alice: I Wish I Was You In this deeply personal episode, I write a letter to Alice—a figure of curiosity, adventure, and endless possibility. Alice's journey through Wonderland is one of self-discovery, embracing the unknown, and navigating the chaos with courage and wonder. For years, I envied her freedom to explore, to question, and to reinvent herself, while I felt trapped by my own inner turmoil, limitations, and fear. In this letter, I reflect on the parts of Alice I longed to embody—the resilience, the boundless curiosity, and the ability to stay open to new experiences even in the face of uncertainty. I explore the tension between wanting to be like her and struggling to accept who I truly am. Through this reflection, I come to understand the unique power of my own journey, how my struggles have shaped me in ways Alice's adventure could never teach. Join me in this moment of vulnerability as I explore the complex relationship between self-acceptance, admiration, and the journey toward embracing my own version of courage. Alice may have been the hero of Wonderland, but in this episode, I discover that perhaps I can be the hero of my own story too. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 127: To the Mirror I Feared: A Letter to My Own Reflection In this heartfelt episode, I write a letter to the reflection I spent years avoiding—the person staring back at me in the mirror. For so long, my own image was a source of discomfort, a reminder of all my flaws, insecurities, and the parts of myself I couldn’t accept. Through the lens of Alice in Wonderland, I confront the fractured sense of self I’ve carried with me, shaped by past trauma, self-doubt, and the complexities of living with Borderline Personality Disorder. This episode is about more than just facing the mirror—it's about reconciling with the version of myself I rejected. As I reflect on the deep-seated fear of truly seeing myself, I share the journey of learning to embrace both the light and the shadow within. The letter is a conversation about self-compassion, self-acceptance, and the power of reclaiming my own narrative. Join me as I rewrite the story of who I am, transforming fear into understanding, and finally embracing the reflection I once dreaded. This is a letter to the person I was, the person I am, and the person I’m learning to love—just as I am. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you. And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters. 🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 7: Unlocked Letters: A Journey Through Hurt and Hope Episode 126: Dear Red Queen: I Learned Rage from You In this raw and powerful episode, I pen a letter to the "Red Queen" within—my inner embodiment of anger, fear, and frustration. Through the lens of Alice in Wonderland, I reflect on how this fierce, unpredictable force became ingrained in my emotional landscape. From childhood tantrums to the destructive cycle of self-loathing, the Red Queen’s reign is both a symbol and a symptom of deeper trauma, neurodivergence, and Borderline Personality Disorder. As I explore the roots of my rage, I also confront its influence on my self-worth and relationships. But it’s not just about fury—it’s about understanding, taming, and learning to live with this powerful force. In this episode, I share the journey from feeling consumed by anger to reclaiming my power and compassion. It's a story of discovering that rage doesn't have to define us; we can learn from it, grow through it, and ultimately find a way to channel it into something constructive. Join me for an intimate, emotional exploration of healing through the chaos, as I write to the Red Queen, finally telling her that the reign is over—it's time to build a kingdom from the ashes. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice — The Wonderland of Being Given Away E125: The Hatter’s Diagnosis “Mad, aren’t you?” In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we sit down with the Hatter — or rather, the long line of therapists, teachers, doctors, and well-meaning adults who tried to explain what was “wrong” with us. Being adopted often means being pathologized. Big emotions? Must be a disorder. Questions about identity? Probably defiance. In The Hatter’s Diagnosis, we untangle the confusion of growing up under clinical scrutiny — where behaviors shaped by loss, trauma, or survival were labeled instead of understood. This episode explores how adoptees are often handed diagnoses before they’re handed compassion — and what it means to reclaim your story when the labels don’t quite fit. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice — The Wonderland of Being Given Away E124: The Queen’s Checklist — Good Adoptee Behavior In this episode, we step into the throne room of expectations — where adoptees are handed invisible scrolls of how to behave, how to feel, and who to be. “Be grateful,” “Don’t ask questions,” “Smile and stay small.” Sound familiar? Today on Wonderland Unlocked, we open up the Queen’s gilded checklist and take a closer look at the impossible standards many adoptees are expected to meet just to feel safe, loved, or enough. From people-pleasing to performance, this chapter in our Not Quite Alice series explores how being adopted can turn identity into a balancing act — all under the Queen’s watchful eye. What happens when you start scribbling on the list… or throw it away altogether? ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E123: Paper Flowers, Paper Parents Sometimes the people meant to care for us feel fragile — like paper flowers that look beautiful but can’t stand the test of time or hardship. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we explore the ache of having caregivers who seem loving on the surface but lack the depth, consistency, or support you needed to truly grow. We dive into: The experience of feeling seen but not truly held The challenges of navigating relationships with caregivers who are themselves fragile or unavailable How to recognize when love is conditional or performative Finding ways to nurture yourself when your roots feel unstable This episode is for anyone who’s ever questioned the strength of their family ties and is searching for a more grounded, authentic sense of belonging. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E122: The Painted Roses of Perfection What happens when you’re expected to be flawless — to fit perfectly into a story that isn’t your own? In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we unravel the pressure of painting over your true self to meet impossible standards. Like the Painted Roses in Wonderland, you might feel forced to cover your real colors just to avoid conflict or rejection. We explore: The exhausting pursuit of perfection to earn love or acceptance How hiding flaws or pain creates a fragile mask that’s hard to keep up The impact of family expectations and unspoken rules on your sense of self Steps toward embracing your authentic, imperfect identity Join us as we peel back the layers of “perfect” to reveal the messy, beautiful truth underneath — because you deserve to bloom just as you are. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E121: The Queen’s “Gift” “You were chosen,” they say. But chosen by whom? And for what purpose? In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we dive deep into the weight of being labeled a “gift” — whether by birth family, foster system, or adoptive parents — and the expectations that come with it. We explore: What it really means to be “chosen” and the pressure that can follow How being a “gift” can feel more like a responsibility or a role than unconditional love The struggle to find your own identity beyond what you were “given” or expected to be Untangling gratitude, obligation, and the desire for genuine connection The Queen’s “gift” isn’t always wrapped in kindness — sometimes it’s a crown of complicated feelings. This episode opens the door to understanding that complexity and reclaiming your own story. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E120: The Caterpillar’s Smoke: Reunion and Reality Collide Reunions can feel like stepping through a fog—hope, confusion, joy, and uncertainty swirling all at once. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we explore the complex emotions when past and present meet face-to-face. What happens when the dream of reunion clashes with the messy, real-life truths that don’t quite match the story you’ve held onto? We unpack: The emotional rollercoaster of reconnecting with birth family or early caregivers Navigating expectations vs. reality in reunions How to hold space for complicated feelings: hope, disappointment, love, and grief The challenge of rebuilding identity when your story suddenly expands or shifts Like the Caterpillar’s smoke rings—beautiful, mysterious, and ever-changing—reunion is never a simple moment. It’s a process of transformation, and sometimes, letting go. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E119: Cheshire Smiles and Missing Files Sometimes the biggest mysteries come with the brightest smiles—and the most frustrating gaps. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we unravel the tangled emotions behind missing pieces of your story: incomplete records, lost memories, and the elusive truths hidden behind a charming façade. We explore: The impact of missing or altered adoption or foster care files How uncertainty can feel like a puzzle with pieces that never quite fit The bittersweet dance of nostalgia, hope, and frustration Coping with the “smile that hides everything” — when everyone seems okay but you’re left with questions Like the Cheshire Cat’s grin, some things remain just out of reach—but understanding how to live with the mystery can be its own kind of freedom. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E118: The Dormouse’s Silence: The Secrets They Fed You Some truths arrive wrapped in whispers—or don’t arrive at all. In this episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we dive into the quiet spaces filled with unspoken stories, half-truths, and the secrets that shaped your understanding of yourself and your past. We explore: The weight of silence and what it means to grow up without clear answers How secrecy around your origins can create confusion, doubt, and isolation The delicate balance between protecting and withholding—and who decides The long-term ripple effects of stories left untold or rewritten Like the Dormouse at the tea party, these silences can feel small but hold immense power—power over your identity, your trust, and your path forward. This episode invites you to face those quiet corners, unpack what’s been fed to you, and start reclaiming your own truth. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 6: Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away E117: The Rabbit Didn’t Wait: A Birth I Wasn’t Meant to Remember Before you had words for what happened—before you even knew what you lost—you were already running to catch up. In this opening episode of Not Quite Alice: The Wonderland of Being Given Away, we begin at the moment that’s never quite clear: birth, separation, and the silent shaping of identity from the start. This episode explores: The unseen impact of relinquishment, adoption, or early separation How preverbal trauma leaves imprints even without memories The ache of chasing connection that was never secure to begin with What it means to feel late to your own story We talk about being the baby who was placed, not chosen. The child whose timeline began with a break. The adult still trying to understand why they always feel like something’s missing—even in rooms filled with love. Some stories start with a page torn out. This one begins in that silence—and dares to name it. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E116: Curious Careerland: When You Can’t Tell What You’re “Meant” to Do One moment you’re chasing a dream. The next, you’re questioning if it was ever yours to begin with. In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we tumble through the twists and turns of career identity crises, purpose panic, and those all-too-familiar existential spirals. Especially for folks living with BPD or deep emotional wiring, finding your “calling” can feel like trying to read a map that keeps rearranging itself. We explore: The fear of choosing wrong, too late, or not at all The overwhelm of infinite potential colliding with paralyzing doubt Why careers feel personal—when maybe they were supposed to be practical How to separate your voice from the noise of expectation, urgency, and shame This one’s for the wanderers of Curious Careerland. The ones who’ve felt behind, too scattered, too intense, or not enough. The ones still searching for something that feels like home. You don’t have to “figure it all out.” You just have to keep following what feels honest. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E115: Wonderland’s Exile: Regretting What You Were Never Allowed to Experience What do you call grief for something you never had? In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we explore the quiet, aching regret that follows you when you were never allowed to fully live—when trauma, control, or emotional chaos kept you on the outside of the life you longed for. Not because you didn't want joy. Not because you didn't try. But because the door was never open for you in the first place. We dive into: The heartbreak of watching others get what you were denied The loneliness of feeling behind in milestones, memories, or freedom The guilt of resenting what looked like “normal” for others The shame of longing for things you were taught not to want Whether it’s childhood safety, teenage freedom, or adult connection—this episode speaks to the exiles of Wonderland. The ones who weren’t just lost… but left out. You didn’t miss out because you failed. You missed out because they failed to make space for you. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E113: Off With Her Head: The Punishment of Being ‘Too Emotional’ Cry too loudly. Speak too honestly. React too visibly. And suddenly—you’re the villain. In this raw episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we step into the emotional courtroom where sensitivity is treated like a crime. We explore how being “too emotional” often gets you labeled unstable, manipulative, or dangerous—especially when you live with BPD. This episode unpacks: How emotional expression becomes a weapon used against youThe way gender, culture, and family dynamics shape emotional punishmentWhat it means to be cast out for expressing needs, boundaries, or truthThe quiet shame of being told to "calm down" when you were already barely holding on If you’ve ever been punished for feeling—silently exiled, emotionally dismissed, or turned into the problem for simply reacting—this one’s for you. Because your emotions aren’t the enemy. The problem is the world that demanded your silence. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E112: Painting the Roses Red: The Family Image You’re Not Allowed to Ruin Smile for the photo. Don’t bring that up here. We don’t talk about that. What will people think? In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we explore what it’s like to grow up in a family where appearances matter more than truth. Where the pain had to be tucked away, the problems brushed under the rug, and the child who noticed too much was labeled the problem. We dig into: The pressure to protect a family image that harmed you How BPD can form in homes where emotions were inconvenient or embarrassing the shame of being seen as “difficult” just for telling the truth The internal war between staying silent to keep the peace—and speaking out to stay sane If you were ever made to feel like your hurt ruined the picture-perfect scene, this episode is for you. Because you were never the mess—just the mirror. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E111: The Stigma Stamp: When Mental Health Becomes the Excuse “She’s just being dramatic.” “He’s having one of his episodes again.” “Don’t take it personally—it’s her mental health.” In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we’re unpacking the painful reality of having your humanity reduced to a diagnosis. When people use your mental health—not to understand you—but to dismiss you, silence you, or excuse their own behavior. We explore: The difference between compassion and condescensionHow BPD is often weaponized as a reason not to listen or take you seriouslyThe internal confusion of wondering, Am I valid or just unstable?The way stigma turns your emotions into a punchline or a warning label This episode is for the moments you were gaslit by kindness, patronized instead of heard, or told your pain was just a symptom. Because your voice matters—even when they try to write it off as “just your mental health talking.” You are not your diagnosis. You’re a whole person. And you deserve to be treated like one. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tell this story. But I am. For years, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets, silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, family fractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds to professionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need to know they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the power of truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply send love — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets #BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E110: Through the Window: Watching Life Go On Without You You see them laughing. Moving forward. Posting pictures. Making plans. And somehow, you're still on the other side of the glass—uninvited, unspoken to, unseen. In this episode of Borderline in Wonderland, we explore the heartbreak of disconnection that isn’t always loud or obvious. It's in the quiet scroll through a feed. The unanswered message. The family event you weren’t told about. We dive deep into: The painful stillness of watching others move on while you feel stuckThe ache of being forgotten—not in anger, but in indifferenceHow BPD can intensify feelings of abandonment, even in subtle momentsThat haunting sense of being an observer in your own story You’re not overreacting. You’re not too much. You’re feeling the absence of what you deserve: inclusion, acknowledgment, presence. This is for the ones sitting by the metaphorical window—who were never told why they were left out, only expected to be okay with it. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E109: The Invitation That Never Came Have you ever sat by the window of your own life, waiting for an invitation that never arrived? In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the ache of being left out, forgotten, or deliberately uninvited—whether it was a birthday party, a family gathering, or just the simple sense of being wanted. Through the lens of Borderline in Wonderland, we unravel how exclusion doesn’t always look dramatic—sometimes it’s silent. Sometimes it’s casual. And sometimes, it cuts the deepest. We dive into: The emotional fallout of being overlooked or deliberately left out Rejection sensitivity and its roots in childhood neglect or invalidation How neurodivergence and BPD can make small exclusions feel seismic The stories we tell ourselves when no one saves us a seat And most importantly, we ask: What does healing look like when you were never invited to begin with? Because sometimes, the loudest heartbreak is the party you were never meant to attend. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E98: Not Just Sensitive – Being Dismissed Hurts Deeper In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the pain of being written off as “too sensitive” when you’re actually feeling everything all at once. For those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder, dismissal doesn’t just sting—it cuts. Whether it’s a sigh, a shrug, or a “you’re overreacting,” these moments can trigger a tidal wave of shame, self-doubt, and invisible wounds. Through Wonderland’s lens, we’ll navigate the emotional fallout of not being taken seriously and the exhausting cycle of trying to prove that our feelings are real. This episode is a reminder: just because others don’t see the storm doesn’t mean it’s not thundering inside. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E97: The Talking Flowers Mock Me – Social Anxiety and BPD In today’s episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we tiptoe through the flowerbeds—only to find that the blooms are whispering behind our backs. Social anxiety with Borderline Personality Disorder can feel like that: every conversation overanalyzed, every silence a judgment, every glance a secret critique. With BPD, the fear of rejection and the ache for connection crash together, making even small talk feel like emotional quicksand. Join me as we wander through Wonderland’s garden of overthinking, second-guessing, and misunderstood interactions. If you’ve ever walked away from a social moment feeling like the flowers were laughing at you, you’re not alone. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E96: Judgment Day in Wonderland – Hyper-Awareness and Guilt In this episode of Wonderland Unlocked, we explore the heavy fog of guilt and the sharp edges of hyper-awareness that often trail those living with Borderline Personality Disorder. What happens when every glance, tone, and silence feels like a verdict? When your inner White Rabbit constantly shouts, “You’ve done something wrong!”—even when you haven’t? Join me as we wander through Wonderland’s courtroom, where invisible judges loom and guilt clings like shadows. Let’s unpack the exhausting mental replay, the spiral of self-blame, and the constant scanning for danger, all through a Wonderland lens. If you’ve ever felt like you’re on trial in your own story, this one’s for you. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
Series 5: Borderline in Wonderland - Emotions like storms. Love like fire. A heart that’s too big for this tiny teacup world. E95: Wonderland Math — How BPD Warps Cause and Effect In this episode, we tumble into the distorted logic of Wonderland, where emotions rewrite reality and cause and effect don’t always add up. “Wonderland Math” unpacks how borderline personality disorder can twist the way we interpret situations—turning neutral events into personal attacks, or believing our feelings must be proof of fact. One small moment can spiral into a full-blown crisis, and understanding what really happened becomes almost impossible through the fog of emotional intensity. We’ll explore how this impacts relationships, self-trust, and healing. Because in Wonderland, 1 + 1 doesn’t always equal 2—sometimes it equals heartbreak. ********************************************************* 🗝️✨ I was never supposed to tellthis story. But I am. Foryears, I lived inside someone else’s version of my life — wrapped in secrets,silences, and bedtime stories that left too much out. Now I’m writing the truth. Unlocked is my autobiography about adoption, anxiety, familyfractures, and the journey of reclaiming my voice. I’m raising funds toprofessionally edit, design, print, and share this book with people who need toknow they’re not alone. If you’ve ever been called too sensitive , too dramatic , too much — this book is for you.And if you believe in the powerof truth, I’d be so grateful if you could help me bring it into the world. 📚🧩 Donate, share, or simply sendlove — it all matters.🌀 https://gofund.me/e7709816 #UnlockedBook #Memoir #AdoptionStory #FamilySecrets#BreakTheSilence#WonderlandUnlocked #SupportIndieAuthors…
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