Richard Dawkins discovered a God of War in the Bible. In 2006 he was dismissive of his find. But I was inspired. I saw opportunity to make history. I wanted to be the first person to take the God of War seriously.
But there was no traction for this God of War till 2016 when Dan Barker proposed the God of War and Jesus Christ is the same person. This meant the gospel narrative could be transferred to Dawkins's outrageous God of War. I had traction and faith in the God of War.
Something wasn't right. Something was missing. Amanda Holden came to my rescue. She is an existentialist. I became aware of existentialism in a big way. I became aware of empathy in a big way. I had an alternative to faith. Existentialism makes sense of the God of War.