I never got to be a daddy´s girl, but I do have a chance to be me. Growing up the daughter of a scam artist has oddly prepped me in becoming a music one. Now, i´m unpacking my daddy issues to see how they have influenced my choices in art, men, and self-love or rather lack of. Recovering From My Daddy Issues, Figuring Out Me Read The Journey on: www.daddyrecovery.com See It On TikTok: @daddyrecovery follow my music under: DIANDRA https://media.rss.com/daddyrecovery/feed.xml
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My dad may have been the equivalent of a catfish, but now the real dating danger is bumblefish Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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The self-help world can feel more like a network to commodify daily emotional struggles, and for Yali and I, survivors, the feeling that we were paying more than actually being relieved became overwhelming. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.com…
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From oversharing to an obsession with being convenient, my father´s mental and emotional has impacted me in many ways, including the strangest pride on how fast I pee. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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🔒 Daddy Recovery Sessions: I Didn´t Love My Kid Until
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Subscriber-only episode Motherhood, in many ways, embodies the artist´s life. It is the highest emblem of creation, and, like most creatives, some moms can feel really disconnected to what they birth, including a baby. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.com…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Spinning Ducks
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In the middle of a Central Park lake, spinning on a duck, Nina questioned whether I was spinning lies towards myself. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: A Regular, Mitch McConnell
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My father HATED being poor, and used his childhood poverty as the very season he left in an economic dust. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Silly Adult
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Sometimes, I miss the basics of being a kid. Swinging on a swing set. Eating ice cream and not giving AF if its smashed all over my face.... a simple time. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Taking Advantage
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My father took advantage of every single woman in his life, and as his emotional scapegoat, taking back ¨the term¨ is not easy. Yet, I´ve got good friends to call me out. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Adam Lives In Theory
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For Adam, the lines between fragility and vulnerability were blurred, but for a group of women, sipping on cocktails and a lifetime of self-work, the difference lined in a point: you are vulnerable if you grow, your fragile if you stay stuck. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddy…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Latino Jesus Part 1
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Sometimes, you really need Latino Jesus to get you through or, at least, mi abuela does. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Sometimes, ghosting a fool is a must. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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One of the ways my father´s abuse was so successful in hurting me was via his ability and desire to crush my concept of magic. Let´s discuss how I´m revamping the word. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Around the 5th month mark in a relationship, the emotional backpack is thrown. Are you willing to carry it? Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Rate My Professor
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Sometimes, a lesson comes from the strangest source or, at least, in an unplanned presentation. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Sometimes, I have a lot of thought and feelings..... might as well make them free. Today, I discuss my newest feelings on the feeling of happiness Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.comبقلم Daddy Recovery
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Business Class
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Out May 23, I discuss the Daddy Issues that inpsire my music: Business Class being a reflection of how my father´s greed for money was often his biggest tool to hurt me. Listen on All Platforms Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecovery.com…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Putting The Harm In Charm/ Bridgerton Season 3 Review
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Like most women watching Bridgerton with clutched pearls and pink bunnies, I wondered whether such level of visual romanticism was hitting my head either like a dose of ecstasy or fentanyl. To my modern, male friends, shows like Bridgerton led to higher expectations that eventually led to the female death of “relationship” reality. Yet, to me, and …
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Now that I’m a dog owner, I hate it when people say men are dogs because, frankly, dogs are incredible. They are generous, loyal, clear in their communication, and unafraid to display their love. I have yet to meet the man who does that. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my truth at www.daddyrecov…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Imagine That
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To my father, he was just an open deadbeat, but, to me, he was a crushed dream. Any girl, with an abusive father or even ex, looks to movies and tv to find those feelings that never happened for them. We watch Bridgerton to see what it is to have an emotionally vulnerable man be strong, sweet, and careful as much as caring with your body and heart.…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Befriending A Gossip
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It is always strange to catch a friend or lover talking about you because, rarely, have I caught anyone speaking behind my back, kindly. It makes sense, though. Love is promulgated. You can see when someone genuinely likes another, and you, probably, do not even need to ask. True love will speak its truth. For many years, I was the only one in love…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Hopeless, Helpless, Happy
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My father raised me to believe that my safety lied in making men feel safe with my intelligence . I was too smart for them and playing dumb protected me from either their visceral nature or their eventual, physical exit from my life. It was strange to know my father saw me like a game: one he could manipulate like my mother, in terms of turning our…
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¨You are obsessed with reciprocity,¨ he declared scarfing down his pizza with no breathe or chew. He was on a diet that he, consistently, broke through junk food binges but made up for with heavier work-outs. He was looking great and feeling so good that he started to put my body down: acting as if I could eat as much as him. Yet, if I did, I would…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: A Married Date
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I still remember how much he smiled before, suddenly, he grimaced like a man that had eaten too much sugar and felt his stomach, abruptly, rumble. It was as if he became, Icarus, before my sun and just crashed like a Greek Tragedy before me. ¨Something wrong,¨ I asked. ¨Nothing… I … ugh…. I have to text my wife,¨ he said looking at me as if I neede…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Happy Hour Friends
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Usually, Happy Hours share the same cast of faces and the common guest stars. It runs on a sitcom concept, which is why, at least once, you will hear a table of happy hour friends, sincerely, discuss starting a podcast. They are not wrong; some of the wisest, funniest people you will ever know, you will oddly not meet because if they are truly that…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: You Don´t Have To Make Me The Enemy
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Part of the magic of children is how wonderfully ethereal they are, unbeknownst to them. I was a wealth of virtues my father never had or, at least, had lost long before I came into his life. I was sweet and sparingly smart. I had a good sense of humor that even adults enjoyed. I loved to dance, sing, and be friends with as many people possible bas…
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When you get a good guy friend, especially straight, it can feel like a miracle. The platonic love is almost richer than the romantic one because it shows you the safety of emotional connecting with your opposite, especially when you have learned how that ¨opposite¨ can be physically and mentally dangerous towards you. Benito was one of my guys fri…
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It is kind of trippy to be entering your 30s realizing you never had a home. My 20s was spent battling health issues, traveling the world, and doing concert reviews. It was a musical mess that brought me bliss until I realized I could not stay in one place too long without feeling like an imposition, as if the government of Amsterdam would notice i…
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Daddy Recovery: Forgiveness For A Mother
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When you define yourself as pain…. You become it. My mother had a lot of pain in her life, especially with my dad but she really did try to do her best and to get to her better, despite him and all. THAT is why I reserve forgiveness for her. My mother made mistakes but my father made graves. He buried people because his soul lived underground, and …
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A Year of Not Trying.... To Deny The Rose
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¨I got The Rose!¨ announced Nina. ¨The Rose!¨ the room audibly announced. For just 23.99 on Amazon Prime you can receive what Josie declared as ¨The Ultimate Orgasm¨ within 10 minutes of its usage. A 2 part master-tech with 7 modes, Nina was describing The Rose like a car dealer would the most lavish vehicle on the lot. She did not have to tell us …
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Daddy Recovery Sessions : Permission To Call You A POS
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Being able to call my dad a piece of shit, has been surprisingly liberating, and not in this vindictive kind of way. It feels cathartic, powerful, and I hope in time totally relieving over the fact that he was, actually,. In essence, I am giving myself the freedom to call my father a horrible human being, which he was, along with so many other toxi…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: A Gaslighting Egg Thief
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My father gaslit me so much, I cannot even go pass a smokers´ sections anymore. I, literally, should tattoo flammable on my ass. For my father, gaslighting was the Reverse-Uno of psychological abuse and one of his favorite tools. You could not tell him he was bad, if anything, he was just flawed or lost, and you were an asshole for not seeing that.…
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A Year of Not Try.... To Not Be Loved In Thickness
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Nerdy, fit, and gorgeous in an Aaron Taylor Johnson kind of way, he was the first hot man that I said, ¨You know what I deserve you!¨ He liked my personality, loved my body (even the flabby parts), and thought, somehow, together they equated beauty. It was terrifying and exhilarating. Finally I was getting what I always wanted, and I felt oddly thr…
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I want Daddy Recovery Sessions to be healing not in just the courage it takes to speak on my father´s abuse, but the greater courage it takes to bring accountability to MYSELF for how that abuse framed MY choices. When you take your power back, you have to see how you chose to continue the pattern of abuse on yourself, even when your abuser was lon…
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A Year of Not Trying ... To Punch A Stylist
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There I was, happy to be on my my first set, completely manifested by my talent and determined positivity. Who cares that Adobe charged me 20 dollars for the app, which I do not own? I will fight for my reimbursement later. I could care less that I have no money to eat or that my dog’s separation anxiety got to a level of a husband demanding his wi…
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To my dad, pity was love, which is why he loved it when people pitied… it meant they cared and also forgot to ask him if it was reciprocal. Yet, I found the quality annoying on him. As we walked through the Basilica, he proceeded to talk about these mysterious, suicide attempts without mentioning who, what, where, and why. They were just his whale …
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Daddy Recovery Sessions : Telenovela Villain
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When I think of Ursula or Telenovelas Villains with a familial bent, they always end up badly. They either tragically die begging for forgiveness, or end up quadriplegic or in a psych ward spending the rest of their days bound and yelling how much they hate their family. It sucks because I get how they got there. Something happens to you when your …
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Opened Coffee
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My father smiled, at me, after 10 years of not seeing each other. I was nervous and excited because what if he was a better human being? What if he did miss me, and, unlike our last interaction, where he said he did not love me, time had shown him I was worth loving. While I never felt it was my fault my dad did not love me, I did feel it was my jo…
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In My Experience: EP1- Casual Relations, Casual Feelings
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This is fascinating,¨I replied. ¨Men want casual feelings, and we want casual relations. Two things that societally we are not allowed to have or say we want out loud without it being systemically oppressed or tabooed,¨ I announced like Albert Einstein screaming ¨Eureka!¨ As I write this, I, sincerely, cannot believe I have friends when I talk like…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: To Pity or Not To Pity
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To my dad, pity was love, which is why he loved it when people pitied… it meant they cared and also forgot to ask him if it was reciprocal. Yet, I found the quality annoying on him. As we walked through the Basilica, he proceeded to talk about these mysterious, suicide attempts without mentioning who, what, where, and why. They were just his whale …
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Daddy Recovery: The Knock Knock Basis
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When I look at my life, I feel it has run on a ¨Knock Knock Basis,¨ of which anybody that wanted to enter did. My openness was praised, and hammered with a parental adage: ¨You take people for who they are… you do not demand of them.¨ What was admired in me as a child had become a warning label about me as an adult. Support the Show. check out my T…
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Now, I am not saying I am Tupac, although I have reached a level of enough healing to admit I am talented, creative, and unique. Yet, we love these legends because they touch an aspect of our reality and our fantasy. He was a star born without a father and some rough circumstance that made the need for one felt. Sure, that may feel like the bold, a…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: The Charm of Cancel Culture
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I am an incredibly unique, powerful talent.... that is totally scared to display herself as such. When you grow with a father that might as well have been a walking Twitter Feed dedicated to destroying you in under 240 characters, cancel culture is not something you fear. Instead, you fear always living under it; never having day when a hater does …
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Mint Is The Flavor of The Poor
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Growing up, I hated the flavor mint, and was quite audible about. So when my father´s first Christmas gift for me, at age 9, was two, mint cookies, I was upset. Yet, I could not imagine that his Napoleon Complex would ignite, and spark a 15 minute rant on how mint, somehow, embodies the pride of poverty. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddy…
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Daddy Recovery Sessions: Filler Energy
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In theater, a ¨filler¨ is someone, usually a crew member, who stands in place of a character as the the director and rest of the cast learn and plan the staging and lighting of a scene. For me, my dad was a ¨filler:¨ he stayed in the place of a character he was not going to perform: a good father. In life, I have found many ¨fillers,¨ and I am dete…
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A Year of Not Trying .... To Be Like The Breather
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Warning: While this episode is a hilarious, true story of a very crazy night with a man who teaches breathing , it does touch upon a serious issue: suicidal ideation. In A Year of Not Trying... I discuss things I´m trying to stop for a year, and many victims of trauma and abuse struggle with death fantasies, especially believing this will make thos…
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Daddy Recovery: The Podcast - The Manifesting Con Man
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The perk of having a con for a father is that they, oddly, teach you the greatest trick to manifestation: it is not about deserve, it is about desire. For my father, a man who deserved nothing. to measure whether you are morally good or personally strong enough for what you want is to push it away. Instead, to want something is enough reason to tak…
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The Daddy Recovery Sessions: EP1- The Ending Is The Beginning
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My father was a bigamist, drug addict, con man that verbally, emotionally, financially, and mentally abused me. Now, I am determined to unpack how my first relationship with a man framed all the ones that followed, especially the one with myself and my music. Support the Show. check out my TikTok @daddyrecovery YT/IG: @diandrareviewsitall Read my t…
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